Soulless & Feral

I promised that I’d expand on Plan X. Originally, my Plan X simply encompassed going overseas, paying off debt, and basically pushing the “backup wealth” button on the good old game of life. As I thought about it, though, and as the possibility went from an idea to a possibility to a probability, the plan evolved from a simple “get capital quick” scheme to a “break free of societal norms” scheme. And like all schemes, it was a silly dream that had no chance of succeeding, that was wasting time I could spend conforming to everyone else’s “work till you fucking drop dead” idea….

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So.

My tentative date of departure is July 6th, so any random confessions, hatred, offers of debauchery, and face punches should be delivered before then.

I’m sure that all but the most clueless of you have figured out that I am headed to Iraq for a year, to support a client for buckets upon buckets of beautiful, beautiful cash. I’m sure that most of you have surmised that said plan is part of Plan X… but you may have the impression that the trip overseas is the sum total of Plan X. That is… not… quite… true. Plan X does begin with the trip, and the money gained is definitely a major part of the first part of the plan, but really… Plan X is simply my most epic implementation of the Fuck It Principle ever.

That’s right… it all comes back to FIP.

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If I had to choose one person, real or fictional, living or dead, that I had to model my life’s philosophy on, I would choose The Doctor, as interpreted in the more modern (2005-2009) Doctor Who episodes. It isn’t that I am a fanboy (though I am,) it is simply this: The Doctor embodies almost everything I want to be, at my core. he is brave, heroic, good, and selfless… and yet dark, vengeful, and unforgiving when the situation requires. He does not compromise his principles no matter what the cost. He does not back down, no matter what the odds.

He values knowledge, kindness, freedom.

He never, ever abides evil or cruelty.

He will give you a second chance, no matter how horrible you are, no matter what you’ve done. But should you refuse the second chance, he will destroy you.

That. Is the man I want to be.

As far as the Fuck It Principle goes, there is only one hard and fast rule. Be true to yourself regardless of whether or not that truth is palatable to the rest of humanity. Usually, adherence is a matter of getting over one’s personal hangups and issues, removing masks, and sliding into what is a more natural, comfortable place to live. Sometimes, though, it means applying your personal code of ethics and fairness even when you recognize that the fallout, the mental anguish, and… yes… the heartbreak you may inadvertently cause will be singularly unpleasant for you.

Sometimes, applying FIP means refusing to take the easy way out.

Sometimes, FIP isn’t fun.

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THIS POST IS NC-17! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Like that ever stops anyone.

I promised that as long as I was out of town on a Friday, I would post some pretty awesome Freak Flag Friday stuff. Now… I may have mentioned some of this in passing, but where I -have- mentioned it I will try to expand on the statement a little.

So, without further ado…

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